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| Not for the christians!!! lol |
SUBMITTED BY: brunrn1
SUBMITTED ON: November 12, 2009 |
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| Mankind!!! |
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It’s God’s way. That’s the biggest load of shit anyone can say to me. That person dies because that is what God wanted. It was their time to go. That’s what I’ve been hearing all my life. It’s time someone gives me a better answer then that. Or their time will come, and not by God’s so called mighty hand, but by mine. Last time I was in a church I watched and listened to this so called man of God talk and talk about praising Jesus and God. Listening to the same songs over and over again. Then someone comes around for your money. What the hell is that? A god that wants your money? How about giving that money to someone that really deserves that. Or is that not god’s way? I know I’m coming off asvery angry and you know what I am. Very angry actually. Not just at God or whatever is there. But in other things that I will go into. Besides like they say, “I’d complain but who would listen, or care”. So I keep it in. Far inside that I hope one day it doesn’t come out. Or maybe I do. Like that asshole that cut me off on my way to work. Picturing pulling him over and beating him to death with my bare hands. The sick part of that is that I can Imagine doing it and the thought of that makes me smile. I wonder what a serial killer feels when he is commiting his crimes. Does he ever have remorse for doing such gruesome acts. Probably not or else he really wouldn’t be a serial killer. One murder and then he would be finished. I often wish people could get inside my head and understand what I think and feel. That all that I’m saying is not a joke, not an act. Maybe it’s a cry for help. Maybe I’m really disturbed, one thing for sure is I have enough anger inside of me to last a lifetime. Can I be helped. No. I admit that, I cannot be helped. No doctor or friend or even a relative can help me through my angst. My pain is my burden and mine alone. Besides, I don’t think I would want any help. I think I’m so used to all of this that I enjoy it. I enjoy the thoughts that play in my head like reruns on the television. I don’t think I ever want them to leave. What would I have then, if I didn’t have that? Maybe God himself wants this for me. God wants me to be angry, maybe I am right and God really is a sick fuck. Why else would would he let women get raped and children get killed or molested by these sick bastards. Who else would allow people to be taken away from their friends and loved ones. Tell me that is the act of someone good. Tell me that and your as twisted as he is. Does it sound like I’m whining? I wouldn’t call it whining, I would just call it telling the truth. Saying what other people are to afraid to say for themselves or to afraid to admit it. When someone dies you have a funeral at a church and as you sit there and watch that person who you loved lay there then you hear this so called speech coming from this priest, can you honestly tell me your not picturing choking him or just standing up and telling him to shut up and keep his comments about HIS God to himself. Did he know that person, no, do I need to hear this crap spew from your mouth? No. Someone just died and your trying to say something right now to make me feel better. What your saying is not making me feel better, it’s just pissing me off even more. What if it was reversed and I was up there speaking about your dead loved one. How about that? It’s God’s way right? Shut the fuck up!
I wonder how long it will be before “God” has his way with me? Will he choose today as my day of reckoning? Or will he let me live out my life longer so I can suffer with my anger? Let me guess, let him suffer he would say, right? Of course.
Don’t get me wrong I’m not some kind of devil worshipper and I’m trying to state my case in choosing to believe in a higher power. I’m just stating my feelings and if you don’t agree with what I’m saying, then your probably ignorant and fooled just like most of everyone else is. Your probably one of the ones that will tell me when something goes wrong that it was God’ way. If you are one of those then do yourself a favor and stay away from me. Cause God has his way and I have my way. And believe me when I say this, but you don’t want my way. I would much rather slice your damn throat open then hear you say that shit to me. |
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